Love...
Romantic love has been on my mind a lot lately.
Watching several friends teetering on the brink of new relationships makes me smile, makes me so happy for them! And reading a wonderful, yet heartbreaking book of love that pursue whole-heartedly, and redeems completely, makes me whistful.
I can't help but wonder when my turn will come? Will it be soon? Is there some sort of checklist I need to accomplish first? Most days, I am completely fine, happy with being single for now, so grateful to have the chance to accomplish things that I couldn't have done in a serious relationship, and having been given the chance to learn so much more about where God is leading me, changing and molding my beliefs on a plethora of things, and simply build many new and stronger relationships.
Along the way I can see how He is gradually teaching me new things, new skills, new responsibilities, new ideas, new freedoms. As hard as it was to get to that point, I see that to have a relationship before these foundational stones are laid in place would be dangerous, too soon. I've been told that I guard my heart too much (the commenter later realized that the guarding of hearts is a good thing), but I also seek to guard the heart of the man that the Father wants me to be in a relationship with. I so desire for these hopes, dreams, desires, to be on God's perfect timetable. Not a day too soon, not a touch too early. While I welcomed the recent stirrings of my heart after a while of quietness, and I sometimes fight back when God gently reminds my day-dreaming heart that it is not my dreams I am longing for, I know that my heart does not have a clue what it is doing aside from God's direction and protection!
And what freedom is given in the realization that no matter how far my heart (or anyone's) might stray, He will always come be there, with arms wide open, running after His lost lamb. While i would much rather stay by His side, I know that He will provide and guide even if our hearts lead us astray, and above all, wherever He leads.
Abba, guide and direct, and tame these dreams and desires if they aren't a part of your plan! AMEN!
Romantic love has been on my mind a lot lately.
Watching several friends teetering on the brink of new relationships makes me smile, makes me so happy for them! And reading a wonderful, yet heartbreaking book of love that pursue whole-heartedly, and redeems completely, makes me whistful.
I can't help but wonder when my turn will come? Will it be soon? Is there some sort of checklist I need to accomplish first? Most days, I am completely fine, happy with being single for now, so grateful to have the chance to accomplish things that I couldn't have done in a serious relationship, and having been given the chance to learn so much more about where God is leading me, changing and molding my beliefs on a plethora of things, and simply build many new and stronger relationships.
Along the way I can see how He is gradually teaching me new things, new skills, new responsibilities, new ideas, new freedoms. As hard as it was to get to that point, I see that to have a relationship before these foundational stones are laid in place would be dangerous, too soon. I've been told that I guard my heart too much (the commenter later realized that the guarding of hearts is a good thing), but I also seek to guard the heart of the man that the Father wants me to be in a relationship with. I so desire for these hopes, dreams, desires, to be on God's perfect timetable. Not a day too soon, not a touch too early. While I welcomed the recent stirrings of my heart after a while of quietness, and I sometimes fight back when God gently reminds my day-dreaming heart that it is not my dreams I am longing for, I know that my heart does not have a clue what it is doing aside from God's direction and protection!
And what freedom is given in the realization that no matter how far my heart (or anyone's) might stray, He will always come be there, with arms wide open, running after His lost lamb. While i would much rather stay by His side, I know that He will provide and guide even if our hearts lead us astray, and above all, wherever He leads.
Abba, guide and direct, and tame these dreams and desires if they aren't a part of your plan! AMEN!
posted by RecoveringPharisee at 9:34 PM
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